My soul is starting to wake up, come back to life,
blossom, bubble, froth and etc.

Not that it was necessarily dead, dull or stagnant before,
but there is something that happens when it gets warmer
outside, and it is happening to me, bit by bit.

It has been a long winter. It's starting to break up.
I wrote an entire song yesterday, which, though formulaic,
I am quite fond of. 2 verses, chorus and bridge in tact, and
it is called "Recovering." It was one of those songs born out
of necessity. I needed to express it at that moment and it
helped me to work through some tough emotions.

I'm also working on several more directly faith related songs.
Lisa feels more at peace with herself when she is writing songs...
or when she is in love. Silly Lisa. Preferably both. But for now,
writing songs will have to do. : ) Thank God for his peace and
presence even in the midst of turmoil in the brain and black
prickles in the soul. Man, I am so glad He is a Merciful God.
I can be so impatient, emotional, and much too quick to forget
all that I am blessed with in Christ.

I hope you are feeling at peace and are doing those things (prayer
and the Word are implied) that make you satisfied in your Spirit
and at peace. I really hope that for anyone who reads this.

God bless.

Just want to say "Hi" to you
because YOU ARE SPECIAL. Yes you.

Lisa is doing well. Lisa is on Spring Break.
Lisa is eating good food in Lincoln and hanging
out with family for a few days before going back
to Lawrence to finish out the break.

My sister Maralee is an amazing woman. If you
want to know why I'm writing this, well, just
know that she has gone through some not so
fun times and is still surviving and trusting in
God. Need I say more? I think not. She is doing
good though. I talked to her this afternoon and
her body is on the mend from her surgery (don't
worry, she'll be just fine).

BYE!

Want to know a thought from my head? It is a special thought.
You see, sometimes I get sad sad SAD and think about things
that I don't understand and wish for what is not here, not now.

However, this realization is starting to make its way further and
further into my soul, and that is this: the world is SO much bigger
then me and God's purposes are being accomplished all over the
world. I want in on that action. I don't want to waste time ho-
humming about being alone again. I'm not really alone.

So, upward and onward. I really mean that. It's not some kind of,
"I don't need a man" cliche. It's not about that, 'cause truth be told,
I think I kind of do need a man. But that is something that God, in
his sovereignty, has not seen fit to fulfill in my life at this point.
And it is ok. He knows best.

I am slowly beginning to form my thoughts again and write some
songs. But I will need additional time to finish and polish them up.
I'll probably have to wait till summer to really dig in. Things are quite
busy. But in my heart, God has made a way for me to find rest and
peace. Thank you, Savior.

Today in church we talked about Christian unity on matters that are
grey and not capitalizing on differences that are not foundational. I
am a fan of this. I'm glad people have their opinions, I am just of the
opinion that it is so hard to know everything and it is healthy to allow
for yourself to be wrong on many things - just not on the foundation of
Christ and His work on the cross and a few other major tenants of the
faith.

I hope you are doing well. I am most likely praying for you as you come
to mind. I'm trying to be more intentional in my prayer life lately. I do
believe it matters. God really does hear, and it also helps my own heart
in its caring for things outside of my own little world. I want to live a life
so much bigger then what I can live on my own. Teach me Lord. Teach
all of us who are seeking you, Lord. Show us what it means to know you,
to follow you, to love you supremely, above all others. For this does not
imply that we do not love those in our life; it implies that we love them
exponentially more then we could on our own, because we love You the
most, and are becoming more like the one who laid down his life for the
sake of sinners.

"Well I pledge my head to heaven for the gospel
and I ask no man on earth to fill my needs
Like the sparrow up above I am enveloped in his love
And I trust him like those little ones he feeds"

--Keith Green, "I Pledge My Head to Heaven"

I am enjoying Jason Upton and The Innocence Mission these days for
music and a book on Nordoff-Robbins music therapy and one on St.
Francis (and the book of Jeremiah) for reading.