This is a new post
(don't get mad at me if this statement becomes false if
you are in the habit of checking this - which, if you are,
I apologize).

I almost feel bad about not blogging in so long. But really,
I'm sure the internet has plenty of forgiveness for me. There
are enough people out there documenting their lives and thoughts
away for me to take a break.

But here I am, taking the torch back up. Oh, I've missed my torch.
You see, I've become so externally focused lately that I fear I'm
starting to become boring. Well, not really. It's just that when
you have so much to do and so many responsibilities, you don't have
time to be interesting. Eh. Maybe I'm more interesting then I give
myself credit for, even when I'm externally focused. I'm still me.
And dang it, I'm interesting!

Hmph. Well, I'm trying here. Let's see now, what should I tell you?

1. I played a song that I wrote in March at a music therapy fundraiser
concert tonight outside. The weather was perfect. It went alright,
and there were a lot of talented folks offering up their stylings.

Want to read the lyrics for my song? Alright, since you silently and
internally asked so nicely...

Sittin' here thinkin' 'bout a million things, just hoping that
One of these thoughts will grow its own two wings, so I can fly
To another side of the universe, so I can get a
Better angle on March 1st, on March 1st

There are only so many things I understand, and I'm not sure that
Even one falls into this plan, still I have to
Raise my hands and praise the Lord, for all of the
Truth and beauty found in His Word, in His Word

Hope was born long before time, which tells me that
There is still hope for this heart of mine, the Son of God is
Interceding now for me, which means that I have
Hope of living eternally, eternally

Are there pale angels standing by, and do they ever
Falter when they start to fly, and are they really
Watching over all of us, and do they hear me
When I cry to Jesus, to Jesus

The hope I have because of God, is like a living
Flower planted in the sod, and even though the
Wind may blow to make it bend, it will always
Spring back stronger in the end, in the end


So I'm not sure whether to call the song "Better Angle" or
"March 1st" or what, but there you have it. Forgive the
strange punctuations and flow of words, but that's how they
fit with the music.

2. After school gets out I'm taking a short trip to Lincoln,
and then a trip to the East Coast. Who hoo!!! I'm going
to finally visit Abby in NYC, and I'm going to spend some time
with a "friend" in Boston. More on this later (I know you're
just dying to know more... but don't die. I'll tell you more
when there's significantly more to tell. After all, this is
my internet journal. If you want to full story, you gotta call
me).

3. I wish I had more interesting things to write about. I mean,
I'm sure I could come up with something to amuse or enlighten
you, but mostly I'm just worn out. School has been beating me
up. But I'm going to get in a few good swings in the next week
and perhaps even win the whole match. I'm a fighter, you know
it's true. Don't discount me 'cause I'm nice and have back
issues. I do pilates every week and I don't give up unless I'm
relatively certain something is a losing battle. This is not one
of those battles. I'm winning already. I need to win this one.

4. Gustav Mahler wrote 9.5 incredible symphonies. I can only
really recommend the 9th 'cause it's the one I know stuff about.
It rocks.

5. I have two new fish and one same old pigeon (name of my
surviving fish).

6. I'm reading in Hosea right now.

7. There was a massive wind storm about a week ago and I thought
it was a tornado and that I was going to die. I hid in my
bathtub and cried/prayed to God to keep me safe. It was really
interesting to journal about it the next day and realize that a
few days prior I had written a prayer to God, saying "please show
me how powerful you are and teach me to trust you." Also, I had
just gotten finished writing about how when I was in the bathtub,
afraid for my life, all I could say eventually was "I trust you,
I trust you.." I've got to say, be careful what you ask for!

God is amazing. I can hardly believe he actually pays attention
to what I pray sometimes, but I tell you, I think if I paid closer
attention I would see stuff like this all over. You know, He
really does hear our prayers, and He really is wonderful to show
bits of Himself to us, even though it is overwhelming to us.

Seven's a good number. I'll stop here.

I hope you are well. Take care and keep seeking the Lord. He
is good.