Excerpts from my brain:


Feb. 2
Life is life is life. If I'm happy now, I'm happy.
If I'm surviving well, I'm competant. If I'm
loving now, I'm loving. The future is nothing
more than an extension of the present.

Life is life is life. Today is tomorrow is
yesterday. They build on each other and
if you pay attention, you can get better.
If you make room in your heart for Jesus
Christ, there is always HOPE and PEACE for
today and tomorrow.

Feb. 3
I wish I could say just what it's like to be a woman
I wish I could see just what it's like to be a man
Because I know, despite our differences,
we're all human
But there's so much of human I don't understand

Feb. 6
Quote from Augustine:
"You hold in truth the whole universe in the hollow
of your hand, and all things are true insofar as
they exist. Falsehood is nothing but the supposed
existence of that which never was...

So when I asked what evil was, I found that it was
not a substance but a perversion of the will when
it becomes bloated with desire for the externals
of life and is diverted from you, God, the supreme
REALITY."

I read through my old palm tree journal last night
and was reminded of just how desperately I have
needed the higher truth of Christ to keep me from
destruction and from giving in to despair. I also
observed that there is a gradual strength and
wisdom that comes ONLY from the passing of
time.

Feb. 14
I may never marry. Somehow it seems important
to write this and accept it. God loves me and knows
what is best for me; what will ultimately allow me
to know more of HIm and conform to that radiant
image.

Expression....this keeps coming up in my mind.
Some people (me) find it hard to express themselves
fully in day-to-day life. Sometimes I envy those who
so freely purge every passing emotion on whoever
happens to be near. It must be so freeing to both
feel confident enough in the validity and importance
of your emotions that you proclaim them loudly and
also to have the ability to quickly make declaritive
sentences about said emotions or opinions. But I
can often go full hours or even days without
expressing one strong opinion or emotion to those
I do not intimately know.

Often the most memorable experiences in life are the
ones you never could have planned in advance.

Today
I will just add that I had a great weekend at home last
weekend 'cause we had a day off from school. It is
so restoring to be taken care of. Oh, and I got some
new CD's the other day (Fionna Apple, Talking Heads,
Micah Blue Smaldone, and Robert Hamilton playing Ravel
and Rachmoninoff) and the Bob Dylan documentary, "No
Direction Home" which I am really enjoying. That guy is
super interesting.

So all you couples can save your pitty. I had a date with
Bob Dylan on Valentine's Day. :-) Yeah, that's my life.
But it's cool. My co-worker Nikki has been having MAJOR
drama with her boyfriend lately and when she tells me
about it, I somehow don't feel so bad about my current
status. Ya know, there really are worse things. Just on
some days it really doesn't feel like it. Eh, whatever.
Life is life is life.

I like my job. It wears me out, but somehow, I still like
it. People are just so fascinating, and I work with some
kids who are even more fascinating than average. I'm
starting to really connect with some of them. They
frustrate me, they make me laugh, they baffle me,
they challenge me...I really love them and desperately
hope they really do see Jesus in me, as my mom
suggested tonight on the phone.

I hope you are well, patient reader. I most likely miss you.
Hope you are thriving. I should go to bed. I leave you
with some awesome verses.

"Ask (in Jesus' name) and you will recieve and your joy
will be complete." --John 16:24

"Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the
only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent."
--John 17:3

sweet dreams my friend.